| Saturday, December 19th, 2009 |
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[ terribletruth99 ]
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4:07a |
1. Whenever my boyfriend gets me upset with him over something while on the phone it's always during the midst of when I'm making a surprise for him, and it makes me feel rather worse staring at the fresh baked cookies or the hand wrapped presents. 2. I'm going to prove my father wrong. 3. Once couldn't sleep for 3 days straight. 4. Looking back I still can't believe I was Bulimic at 12. And then recovered myself months later. Haven't done it since. |
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[ hamartiaharmony ]
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12:53a |
The heartbreak is so painful it's making me physically ill. |
| Friday, December 18th, 2009 |
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[ exsultate ]
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11:29p |
Whenever I can't get ahold of my boyfriend, I'm afraid he's dead. |
| Sunday, December 20th, 2009 |
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[ shattersixx ]
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1:20a |
- I am attracted to females who are huge fans of Harry Potter, which is strange, because I barely watch it, and I only read one of the books. - I am convinced we all fall in love, slightly, with each person we meet who can make us smile. And that gives me such an unbelievable sense of joy, knowing that I have loved and have been loved, every single day. |
| Saturday, December 19th, 2009 |
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[ love_bones14 ]
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4:23a |
- You FRUSTRATED ME. I was planning/am planning to go on MSN tomorrow or the next day, or the next, as you drained alot of my energy - I can't have that right now, I don't need that right now. Your negativity drains me, and I can't stand it :/. ( other random secrets ) Current Mood:  contemplativeCurrent Music: coldplay - square one |
| Friday, December 18th, 2009 |
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[ 1kat ]
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5:43p |
Haven't posted in a while.
1. I check once under all the beds when I'm home alone. 2. Before I go to the bathroom, I check to make sure no one's in the shower. 3. I only really feel "home" when I'm with my boyfriend, sitting criss-cross, looking in his eyes. |
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[ leadsinger331 ]
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7:19p |
The people who mean the most to me never have time for me. And sometimes I think that means they don't want to see me. Maybe it's true. |
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[ bluefireworks ]
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5:18p |
I'm afraid I will never find someone that loves me the way I loved you. |
| Saturday, December 19th, 2009 |
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[ drop_down_dead ]
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12:09a |
Sometimes I'm a little scared that my online family cares for me and understands me more than my real family. I told my mum about this worry in a subtle way, and she told me 'As long as you have support from somewhere it shouldn't matter what makes you happy'. My mum understands me more than she lets on, and I love her for that. Extra secret: My nana pisses me off in how she notices every little thing wrong with me and simply tells me to 'Stop it' rather than offer any sort of help (example: I have a habit of pulling my eyelashes out, she just tells me to stop it because my eyes look funny, not because she's worried about my mental health like my mum) |
| Friday, December 18th, 2009 |
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[ sadandangry ]
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2:49p |
I am scare that i will never be happy. I hate myself for loving you. Current Mood:  blankCurrent Music: Goodbye (I'm Sorry)-Jamestown Story |
| Saturday, December 19th, 2009 |
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[ shattersixx ]
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4:12p |
Real Men Don't Rape.
As I've gotten older, I have grown less and less interested in sex,
and I'm not even eighteen yet.
You ruined everything. I hate that I let what you did dicate my life. |
| Friday, December 18th, 2009 |
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[ littlebird145 ]
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9:50a |
1. I'm done with finals but I feel like I did a really bad job. I can't get it off my mind. I told my parents that I'm happy with my work but I'm not. 2. I'm super excited for Kooza. I feel like a little kid. 3. I'm dreading my birthday..........10 more days..... Current Mood:  aggravated |
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[ kittycatcoof ]
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12:33p |
I'm jealous all my friends are going home for Christmas and I'm not. And the reason why I am away from home is to be with my boyfriend but things have gone to shit with him. Now I'm stuck here 2,000 miles away from anyone. I didn't think I'd miss my family so much. :( |
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[ st_ends ]
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9:16a |
I hate getting money for Christmas knowing I need to spend it on bills instead of being able to enjoy or save it. They cut my hours at work because they know I'm joining the military and I have less than 20 dollars to spend on my boyfriend for Xmas. And even that feels like a lot compared to what I have. |
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[ whispered_lily ]
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8:33a |
i am so fucking mad and that probably reveals more than anything i could have said. |
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[ yuliarahmi85 ]
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6:52p |
the truth be told
So, I knew it's gonna end up like this. S is for sure finally find someone. I want S, but am not there, I can't kiss, hug, rub, treat nice, protect or make S laugh. Even if am there, no chance for me to treat S good. Too much feelings I felt in my heart that I barely said a word and made S mad. Am so fuckin jealous and extremely sad hearing S shared the romantic moment with that someone. I just wished I am that someone. I know it's impossible like hell but still I want to be that someone. Hug and kiss with passion, the sweetest moment I've been dreamin of long time ago. So many chances slipped away, not really slipped away, I was just too afraid things might not work out the way I want it, I know it won't so that's the only reason that stops me taking that chances. Stil I promise to my self that I -what ever will it cause next after- somehow will take one chance to have S, no matter whatever it takes, I'll give my all. I am desperately want S. No one knows this, not even S. I don't even know why I have this kind of never-ending feelings, it's just can't go away. Each and every single day I thing of S. I breathe S trhu me, makes me survive the life tho the truth says NO. Current Mood: indescribable |
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[ slurredxspeech ]
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10:53a |
Everything I plan turns to crap. I sound like a broken record or like someone who is ungrateful about what they have- I'm not, I'm thankful that I have a home and family and money or whatever, but it just seems like the universe is out to get me. I have two friends in the world, and they live three hours away. I'm supposed to be going to see them today, but it's snowing. There are delays and my mum is taking me to the station, which is an hour away, and isn't sure if she wants to drive anymore. She's also got menieres disease and is getting sick and dizzy. I hardly eat and I am moderatley active, yet I'm fat. I have hardly any social skills and people just don't like me. I have no confidence, but I can't gain that confidence. When I talk about this with my family they just think I'm complaining. Also, I have no talent. There's nothing special about me, at all. I thought I could write, but it turns out I'm bad at that, too. I think it's time for my break now, universe. |
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[ getawayx ]
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5:03a |
Your house is only fifteen minutes from mine. Ever since I got home, it's taken all I have not to run there and tell you everything. |
| Thursday, December 17th, 2009 |
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[ exsultate ]
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10:30p |
I want to cut again so bad. I haven't cut for so long. But I just really want to again. And I'm not even that depressed anymore. I'm generally pretty happy. Things aren't even that bad. But I just want to cut myself. Insanely and brutally and just slash myself all up. |
| Friday, December 18th, 2009 |
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[ xalifesochanged ]
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12:21a |
I don't generally post twice in a day, but I had to...
I did well this semester. Not well enough, but well. ... I hate how it seems like everyone wears their GPAs stamped across their foreheads in college. Must everything be all about numbers? Must we wear them like a badge, a medal of honor? College seriously makes me feel stupid and worthless. |
| Saturday, December 19th, 2009 |
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[ shattersixx ]
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1:12a |
I don't want to be the funny, fat friend anymore. |
| Friday, December 18th, 2009 |
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[ pomegranate_md ]
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12:36a |
Four hours into a month-long break from college and already I want to go home. Not to my parents' house. Home, which for me is now my college dorm. I have no qualms about this. |
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[ fueledbycupsoup ]
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12:27a |
1. I'm just hurt, and sad. Yesterday I felt like I had everything, and life would work out. Nothing has changed but today I just want to disappear. There's a puddle on my pillow and I didn't know you could actually cry that many tears.
2. I was so happy that my cousin called me after not hearing from him for months. Then I found out he only called because he was looking for our other cousin. And they all had a big sleepover a few nights ago. I didn't hear about it until after. I feel unloved. I don't even want to have a family anymore. They expect you to be around when they need you, but they're never there for you.
3. When I came in tonight, my mom said "We don't live to serve you." ARE YOU KIDDING ME? I spend every moment that I'm home catering to her like a slave, without even a thank you ever. When I ask for small favors I have to do even more work. She never does a thing for me that I don't pay for dearly.
4. Everyone always tells me to go see my father, that even though he was never much of a dad he's still my father and two wrongs don't make a right and blah blah. But it's not wrong of me not to go see him. And I'm not mad because he was never there. I'm mad because he and my mother had me. I will never forgive either of them for something so easily avoidable.
5. I want to die. |
| Thursday, December 17th, 2009 |
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[ neverland13 ]
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9:39p |
I am a lesbian in a hetero marriage. I am sad and want out. I care for my husband, but I know he feels it coming. I am so sad that I am hurting him. |
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[ xalifesochanged ]
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9:21p |
I can feel us falling apart. |
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